I’m a planner. A list maker. But as it turns out, that’s all I am. I can’t seem to get from planning to doing to finishing. As I type, I have a load of whites spread across my living room floor that has been there all night, I have a ton of paper work to do (my desk is under there somewhere), laundry, signs to finish (the actual job that makes the moolah – note I said finish not start because I’m in the middle of several), a house to declutter (the big project for the year – for which I have a great 6 page plan! but that’s another post that I thought I’d have on here by now) ( and I did remember the link – click here for that)
And I’m thinking now God and Jesus are sitting there chuckling at me – I can see Them pointing down and smiling at me “she’s at again … list making … everything she wants to get done.”
But this mornings devo took me by surprise. It was from book called Jesus Calling by Sarah Young. It said: Do not wear yourself out with analyzing and planning, Instead, let thankfulness and trust be your guides through this day; they will keep you close to me … you will cease to notice how weak or strong you feel, because you are focusing on Me.”
One, the Lord has really been dealing with me about FOCUS. Like I said there are usually a thousand things running through my head a minute. Two, I can’t remember right now because I forgot while I typed one. Three, I wrote notes for a Bible Study a while back entitled “I’m tired.” I’ll post that and link up for some background soon (maybe… we’ll see – and I did manage to do that too – click here for that). Four, one of THE verses to go with that devo is THE first I’ve penned in the front of my prayer journal – Psalm 29:11 – which I don’t think I’ve shared with anybody – it’s been my prayer over my family for a while now. It says ” the Lord gives His people strength – He blesses them with peace.”
I have to ask myself, can I really stop planning? Can I really trust Him enough? But as it turns out, He’s always got my back – He’s always working on my behalf. When he sees me planning and analyzing and knowing all the while those plans will backfire. So, I’m just taking it one step at a time – as Jesus leads. At some point, it will all get done … maybe not my plans or how I expected to do it … but His.
Thank you Father for these God lessons – may I always appreciate them. Amen.
Are you a planner, a list maker? How do you make yourself focus in the midst of kids and bills and work to get it finished?